Ubiquitous

This week has been a very busy,stressful week for me. I have been trying to reach out to a co-worker of mine this week who without a doubt needs God in his life. In doing this, it has put a lot of stress on me during the time when I am at work, and I have found that even after I come home I am still very stressful. Today my pastor spoke about the battle that we face outside of church. About keeping our faith  when we leave, and go to work. I find it pretty interesting that he spoke about that this week, since I have been trying to live my life that way at work. While I am trying to reach out to my co-worker I feel it is a affecting my home life, I have been feeling more and more stressful each time I come home. Until today I did not know what was going on, I would come home and it seemed I could not help but to get angry at Katie and the boys. I did not understand why I was so short with them, I found myself wanting to just go to bed and not deal with anything. All week I have felt like a bad husband, and father, and I did not know why until today. This afternoon while everyone was taking a Sunday afternoon nap, I decided to take some time to work on what I was going to post about. As I sat here, I could not come up with anything to talk about, Every time I tried, my mind would fill with other things that have been stressing me this week. Between closing on this new house, and working with my co-worker, and every day issues, I could not focus on a simple thing. My mind was racing so fast I could barely put the creamer into my cup of coffee. Finally I shut the laptop, set my coffee down and stared at the yellow walls in my kitchen and said "Lord, HELP!" I sat here for a few seconds and I realized that not once this week have I gone to God for help. I starting running through my week in my head, not once have I prayed to him asking for advice, or help on anything. I was acting all on my own, then I realized why I was so stressed and confused, and dazed, and short with everyone. Because God was teaching me a lesson, He showed me how life could be without him. A week full of stress and feeling as if I was in a dark room with no one to help, the feeling as if my family was falling apart, everything. I was so worried about helping my co-worker, and making sure all the paper work was signed and to the right person, and that I was at work on time, and that.... you get where I'm going, I simply forgot to turn to him and say, Lord, I need to help today, the tasks of the day are to much, I can not go on without you today. Please be by my side as I walk through the world. The second I turned my eyes to him today, my stress was gone, the directions where loaded, and I had God right back at my side once again to make the trip. Brett was right, we need to be prepared for what we walk into each day, but thankfully, we do not have to do it alone.
I hope this lesson that I learned will help you out as well, just remember to keep God close, and the nothing will ever seem like it impossible.
I'm going to go join my family in the Sunday afternoon nap, 
God Bless,
Eric