Listening

Earlier I left off without completely finishing my story, but do not worry over time you will catch on. The Lord is amazing, the things he can do for you, the things you can do through him. Completely amazing. I have had many hard times in my life, not as hard and others but if me it was hard and unknown terrain. After Troy was born, I was still no stronger of a Christian, I was just a young weekend warrior. My wife actually was the strong one, and how she did things and still does there is no way that God is not working in her life. From a non Christian point of view, you would think she was wonder woman. I have always felt like I was stronger than normal, but it was until I got a taste of "the real world" till I understood that it was not me, it was Jesus. After I finished college I figured that everyone would hire me because I went to this great tech school and that is all I would need. Well turns out, the world does not work that way. I went to many interviews trying to find a job that would be able to support my new family without having to move away from our families. Well it did not work that way, and I was crushed. I could not understand why I was not getting the dream 9 to 5, white collar, drive a BMW job. I looked to God and asked him "why!?!?!?" Why Lord, why am I not getting what I want. But before he could of even answered I would jump onto the next train and not even wait for him to answer. Weekend warrior, yep that means I had no idea on how to wait before I jumped, and it made me fall pretty far, and hit bottom even harder. I jumped from factory to factory working 12-15 hour days trying to make it work. Katie was home with Troy and everything was ok. I rushed us into this loft apartment so we would be out of section 8, I did not seek God, I did not ask, I should have. Right after we unpacked the last box, We were told that we had to move, The apartment was no longer going to be rented out. I was so mad, at everyone, the bank, myself, I was even mad at Katie and she has nothing to do with it. I was just mad at everything that had a pulse, including God. But I did not break down and run to him, nope I was bull headed, and I knew inside that I could do this on my own without God, without help from anyone. 

Boy was I wrong.....

May God Bless you today,

Eric